While I debated bearing my heart here tonight, I remembered.
I remembered that I made this blog with the purpose of documenting our journey. A place where I could fondly look back and remember how it was...the good, the bad, and the ugly. Some day I may look back and laugh at how things were or I may even cry. The fact is, I want to be able to look back and remember the little things I may forget.
We are in a very busy & demanding season of life over here. I have two very active little boys who have school & sports going on. An amazing husband who has so much going on and then there's me. I am a full time working mom, a chef, baker, homemaker, chauffer, educator and boo boo kisser.
With all of that being said, I sometimes find myself feeling as if I am not doing enough for my kids, my husband or even myself.
I could be doing more crafts, sneaking in more cuddles, being more patient, cooking more meals, staying on top of laundry, having a spotless home....the list goes on & on.
I know most days I am the best mom I can be. But that doesn't keep me from feeling like I fall short. I do my best not to compare myself to others. Facebook & instagram are usually filled with highlight reals. I know that, but some people appear to have everything put together all the time. I am not jealous of their lives...I think mine is pretty darn fantastic. I just want to know how they do it!
I see some moms at preschool and if it wouldn't make me a lunatic I always want to stop them and ask them how they seem to do it? Not be rushing into school dragging their child along so they aren't late & then rushing back to their car to get off to work. Not forgetting to bring back their child's blanket after it was sent home on Friday for a wash. Remembering to send the paper work back without a reminder.
I swear when I became a mom my brain started leaking out my ears in my sleep. I have never felt so forgetful in my life!
So moms, I ask...are you feeling this way too? Do you feel like as much as you try to "have it all together" you don't?
This too shall pass and until then...I'm gonna give myself some grace and tell myself that as much as you look like your rocking this mom thing, you too feel just like me! :)
I posted this on facebook once & I'm gonna share it here because its a GREAT reminder that I often find myself forgetting!
Until next time friends,
XO Jessica
